Living the mantra...

What is a mantra worth, if you don't live it as fully as you can?

Surely it is powerful only if you embrace it with all your determination.

It is more powerful still if you focus on it, grasp it firmly and live it wholly.

Day three - where's the life-raft?

I had that feeling today like I'm swimming as hard as I can, but drowning despite my efforts.

It's day 3. 

It's a new job.

New rules.

New people.

New ways of doing things.

My expectations are high.

It's such a terrible feeling though, not knowing what I am doing... having to ask question upon question. Where assumptions are made that explanations are not required or verbal briefs are enough, when often they are totally inadequate.

I am missing the comfort and ease of my old job, but I know this is right. I know it takes time to settle in. This is change for the better. And this feeling is all about doing something new and being challenged.

And yet, I hate that feeling of gasping for air.

Shouldn't I be doing an easy backstroke by now?